Today I gamed for four hours and spent the rest dicking around, watching Game of Thrones and not studying Japanese
And now it’s 5 AM
Why am I so bad at this
Ugh I feel like utter shit
It’s been almost 4 weeks since class started at Brown and I haven’t been going due to my dumb… dumbness
I will write a long apologetic letter to the profs so I will definitely guilt trip myself to go tomorrow
so done with myself it’s horrendous
it’s time I got my shit together for spring semester
I need to change my name
there’s this other girl named Annie Bai, she’s two years older than me, studies at Cornell… and she has this website
she mostly does interface design but she has some character designs on there and
I need to change my name if people google me they’re going to think I’M HER and I
had PBR, said the word ‘ironic’, went to a party at a theatre dorm at Brown
And next week apparently a warehouse party
I have lost all right to contradict my friends when they call me a hipster
On the bright side I saw two ivy league guys making out they were really cute
I can’t draw straight lines freehand halp
I had another dream that I had a cat
It won’t cuddle with me
I’ve yet to be in the city since I got back. Oakville is sufficiently the most suburban area in probably all of Canada. All of my friends live in the city. I’ve been practically under house arrest. If I was a normal person I probably would’ve died of loneliness.
Thank god I’m a socially challenged hermit BUT THIS ISN’T HELPING MY SOCIAL ANXIETY ISSUES
I swear if I ever have children I’m just going to plop them down in one place and never move unless absolutely necessary so they can have healthy childhood relationships with other humans and wont have trust and detachment issues like I do.
It’s 8:30AM and I should probably sleep
Where is my sleep schedule. Whereeeeeeeee.
Because where else am I going to rant, really. I suggest you don’t read it, it’s dripping with sarcasm and cynicism, deeply personal, and that can’t be good for the soul and probably more about me than you ever wished to know about.
Great, now I’m cheesed.
Don’t just drop a big news on me and then just log off
That’s just rude.
I guess there’s nothing for me to do but complain on tumblr.
I had a really creepy dream involving a woman, a baby, a dead baby, a mansion, a secret underground tunnel lined with meat in the shape of a throat, and the woman’s stalker.
Then my brain decided to reward me with dreaming I had a cat
But the cat hates me
Sometimes I want to reach over the US-Canadian border and slap the fuck out of you guys
But at the same time I’m jealous
WHY DO YOU ONLY DO STUPID THINGS WHEN I’M NOT THERE TO WITNESS IT
WHY AM I IN THE STATES
I don’t like the States
-crawls in a hole and dies-
I’ve been reading some of my old Chinese books, one of them was about a girl’s daily life in elementary school. Even though it’s set in Canto, it’s still pretty similar to the life I lived as a kid, such as:
Con men everywhere trying to take your money XD
Bartering. On everything.
People everywhere! And these people are not shy. Most are nice people. And they’re always out at night, nobody stays indoors in the evenings.